What Day is It?
Where have the days gone? I no longer think of days in terms of Months, Weeks and 24 hours. I used to love to go to sleep early, wake up at 3:AM, have my coffee and go for a swim, then do whatever it is I used to do before picking up Hailey from school, then go to the pool to coach in the afternoon. I would come home, make dinner, help Hailey with homework, then go to bed and start all over again. I LOVED Saturdays!
My days are now filled with a whirlwind of tests, doctor visits, surgery, and soon to be treatment. I don't really have a concept of what day or month it is. My focus has been on, "how many days until surgery" or "when is my next appointment". I don't feel like I "own" my life anymore. I feel like a walking disease without a purpose.
I am going to do something just for ME. I am going to set some short term goals to get my brain off cancer, such as complete www.myhavasu.com . I am also going to set a long term goal to finish a triathlon. I bought the stupid triathlon suit, and dammit... I am going to use it! Anybody up for a bike, run or swim? I walked a 20 minute mile yesterday..... I guess that will be my starting point. :)
My days are now filled with a whirlwind of tests, doctor visits, surgery, and soon to be treatment. I don't really have a concept of what day or month it is. My focus has been on, "how many days until surgery" or "when is my next appointment". I don't feel like I "own" my life anymore. I feel like a walking disease without a purpose.
I am going to do something just for ME. I am going to set some short term goals to get my brain off cancer, such as complete www.myhavasu.com . I am also going to set a long term goal to finish a triathlon. I bought the stupid triathlon suit, and dammit... I am going to use it! Anybody up for a bike, run or swim? I walked a 20 minute mile yesterday..... I guess that will be my starting point. :)
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